i don't know if that's a word, but that's how i'm feeling and i need to release. so there ya go.
this is my thing. at my place of employment my title is communications assistant otherwise known as communications peon. however, i deal with this just fine at work because i am a humble person and understand that i have to work my way up. even though all of the other coordinators in the office don't have a degree (one exception) and a couple of the directors don't have a degree. but whatever, that's what i'm getting the master's for.
but i digress.
a couple of weeks ago i requested a title change to communications coordinator and was told i don't make enough decisions on my own which is why i was an assistant and couldn't be a coordinator. so, i asked to have the ability to make those decisions and my jerkwad of a boss took that as a threat of me taking his job. he emphatically stated — and i quote, "you can't have it because that's my job!" is he kidding? he must be kidding because 50-some odd year old men don't speak like this. he seriously sounded like some kindergartner. i guess that's just his insecurity though. so whatever. i basically got settled with the idea that i am not going to move up in this organization. most people would start looking for another job. however, fans of "isn't she lovely?" know that i'm going back to school. so, my plan was to sit back at my desk with my peon self doing my peon duties while getting some studying/research in in the meantime.
so, how come today my jerkwad boss is trying to make me do all of this research work that is not part of my job and encouraging me to set goals for myself for next year when it's his job as my supervisor to set my goals? seems like i'm making some decisions for myself, eh?
i'm so frustrated with his inability to supervise/manage. sure, i can manage myself, but i'm not getting paid for it and they won't give me the title to do so. i feel like if i don't have the money or the title and all the prestige (ha!) that comes with it, i should resort to being told what to do and do that and nothing more. my jerkwad boss hasn't given me motivation to do better, now has he?
i'd like to digress and say this is not the type of person i am. i am a total 150% person. obviously, since i'm tortuing myself through grad school.
anyway, i just have had it about up to here with him. and i needed to vent before i choke him.
but it's all good because in a few short years i'll have a master's degree, a wonderful family and this will all be but a memory. you can't have the testimony without the test.
that's all... tomorrow will be better because god says so!
this is my thing. at my place of employment my title is communications assistant otherwise known as communications peon. however, i deal with this just fine at work because i am a humble person and understand that i have to work my way up. even though all of the other coordinators in the office don't have a degree (one exception) and a couple of the directors don't have a degree. but whatever, that's what i'm getting the master's for.
but i digress.
a couple of weeks ago i requested a title change to communications coordinator and was told i don't make enough decisions on my own which is why i was an assistant and couldn't be a coordinator. so, i asked to have the ability to make those decisions and my jerkwad of a boss took that as a threat of me taking his job. he emphatically stated — and i quote, "you can't have it because that's my job!" is he kidding? he must be kidding because 50-some odd year old men don't speak like this. he seriously sounded like some kindergartner. i guess that's just his insecurity though. so whatever. i basically got settled with the idea that i am not going to move up in this organization. most people would start looking for another job. however, fans of "isn't she lovely?" know that i'm going back to school. so, my plan was to sit back at my desk with my peon self doing my peon duties while getting some studying/research in in the meantime.
so, how come today my jerkwad boss is trying to make me do all of this research work that is not part of my job and encouraging me to set goals for myself for next year when it's his job as my supervisor to set my goals? seems like i'm making some decisions for myself, eh?
i'm so frustrated with his inability to supervise/manage. sure, i can manage myself, but i'm not getting paid for it and they won't give me the title to do so. i feel like if i don't have the money or the title and all the prestige (ha!) that comes with it, i should resort to being told what to do and do that and nothing more. my jerkwad boss hasn't given me motivation to do better, now has he?
i'd like to digress and say this is not the type of person i am. i am a total 150% person. obviously, since i'm tortuing myself through grad school.
anyway, i just have had it about up to here with him. and i needed to vent before i choke him.
but it's all good because in a few short years i'll have a master's degree, a wonderful family and this will all be but a memory. you can't have the testimony without the test.
that's all... tomorrow will be better because god says so!
5 lovely comments:
mrcrazyone said...
Don’t choke him. Trip him when he walks by you with an armload of paperwork. (LOL) You are doing the right thing by taking your long term goals into consideration and not acting purely on emotions. Stay strong and stay positive.
melyssa said...
thank you very much. i needed that today!
-Me said...
Bordeaux said...
melyssa said...
the point of my blog is to post my random thoughts. i don't know who this jb person is, but if you don't know me and don't know my situation it's really none of your business and your advice is not wanted.
how do i delete is comment?
he really is a 45-year ODD man!